Pancake

Today I had the pleasure of putting my chest into a machine and getting it smashed to smithereens. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I anticipated. But 17 lbs. of plastic pushing down on tender parts didn't feel that great. Flat as a pancake, I tell you. I should get results in the mail in a week or they'll call me before if there are any concerns (we don't anticipate any, this is just so I have a baseline). Hopefully I won't have to have another one for a long while. I had the screening done up at Huntsman. Such a beautiful building. You can't help but feel hope while you are there and every worker I encountered was friendly and greeted me. One thing that struck me there was as I was leaving, there was a girl, about my age, with a bald head and a scarf over it. It made me SO grateful and thankful for my health. I am truly so blessed. Update on my supplements - I'm getting them down without gagging. I actually started taking 2 scoops of whey instead of 1/2 and it was much more tolerable. I think it was the almond milk making me gag. I've NEVER been a milk girl, the taste, the texture, ew. So the 2 scoops make it thicker like a shake so I'm doing alright. I'm feeling really good, a lot of energy, not dragging-in-my-shoes tired anymore (that in and of itself is worth it), and my anxiety seems to be doing well. I'm only down 1/2 pound right now but it's a good exercise in self-control. It's something that I desperately needed. I don't feel weighed down by all the crap I was eating. Sometimes what I wouldn't give for a Coke or a cupcake, or even a little piece of Easter candy but I haven't touched soda in 10 days or sugar in almost a week. Hopefully this will help me realize my self-control again and eat for fuel, not just for fun. Hopefully it'll pay off in the baby department soon too!