Decisions

So somewhere in the last few years, I lost all decision-making skills. I think I started on the decline during my mission when I had one focus and very few decisions that weren't already made for me. Wedding planning is not for the non-decision-making kind. Thankfully, my decision to marry Dallin was a no-brainer or we'd still be waiting around!

My indecisiveness was manifest today as I couldn't decide between two wedding dresses and put a down payment on both to order them in my correct size. Thankfully, this is buying me precious time. One dress should be here in 4 weeks, the other in 8. That's around Christmastime people! Guess my bridals will be last minute.

Another near disaster was registry shopping last night. Dallin is so laid-back he's not too into decisions either and the thought of having to coordinate colors and tables and lamps and pictures for a house/apartment we don't even have yet was overwhelming to us both. "Do we need that table/pillow/curtain when we don't know what our place will look like and if it'll match?" I think we did decide on a monkey bathroom for future children though.

Every day I'm faced with billions of decision, most of them being wedding-related now. I do feel grateful for agency as I can decide what colors I want my kitchen and whether I want to show up to work or if what I'm going to eat tonight. Hopefully Dallin or I will be able to step up and decide. I vote for him since he'll be the patriarch but we both want the other to be happy so we're willing to sacrifice our own opinions. :) It could be worse - at least he's not controlling!